Everyone knows (or at least every mom knows) about the massive loss of brain cells that women experience during pregnancy. This leads to "Mommy Brain" - it's not that we get dumb, not by a long shot, but we become FORGETFUL! Ok, I do - I guess I can't speak for every other mom out there but I know I'm not the only one.
In my opinion, this has been a mixed bag - blessing and curse. It's hard when I feel like I am constantly leaving something upstairs or downstairs or in the car or in the house. This was already an annoying part of my life and now it's a million times worse. I also forget conversations I've had with people even though that used to be one of the things I was good at remembering. It's as if my brain is only letting certain things in and everything else just gets flushed out.
However, it's nice to not always remember everything. I didn't go into labor (and therefore did not deliver my babies the old fashioned way), so I can't say that I forget the pain of childbirth having not gone through it. But a lot of women say that they know it was bad but they can't really remember just how bad it was. I can say that I have easily forgotten how uncomfortable I was during my pregnancy. I guess this helps ensure that we will all keep having babies - most days I'm ready for number 3! (I know, crazy. Lock me up, please)
A couple weeks ago, I had one of those days where things just were not going well and it all culminated in a total twin meltdown. I couldn't calm them both at once so I had to choose. It was the worst feeling, leaving one baby crying like that for so long, for so hard, just because I had another baby to deal with. I was so upset and I was thinking, "I gotta write about this because I feel so awful and it'll be all cathartic, and yadda yadda, blah..." By the time I got to my computer, later that night, babies in bed, I couldn't even remember what I was so upset about. It was as if my brain had purged the memory of the event and the feelings that went along with it.
Thank God. Those aren't exactly the memories I want to hold on to. So, while I usually complain about Mommy Brain, it serves it purposes. Otherwise, there would be a lot of only-children out there...
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