Thursday, July 29, 2010

The Waiting Game

Well, my "scheduled" induction has come and gone. The hospital was too full today and so we will try again first thing tomorrow morning. I have my alarm set to 6am so I can call and see if there is space available for me. In other words, hurry up and wait.

To be honest, I really don't want to be induced. I hear all these pitocin horror stories and I just want Matteo to come the normal way. Go into labor, work through it, push, push, push, have a baby. The hospital and the OB are there just in case something goes awry but otherwise, I view them as unnecessary. Perhaps I should have found a midwife for this pregnancy but its too late for that now. I never thought I would make it this far - its rather odd to be on the other side, waiting for a baby to come instead of praying it stays in. And I know, no matter what, once he comes everyone will be happy, blah, blah, blah. As long as he's healthy, blah, blah, blah. But I think its unfair how people discount the unique experience of giving birth. Of course I want a healthy baby and of course I will be happy as soon as he comes out but that doesn't change the fact that I also have certain feelings about his actual birth. About my labor and my body and my experience.

I have tried some things to help get labor going but to no avail. LOTS of walking (hello, I have two 20 month olds!), eating spicy food, nipple stimulation (via the good old breast pump - and boy, was that weird after all this time). But still, nothing. Though, some progress has been made. As of Tuesday, I was almost 2cm dilated and 70% effaced. Last night, I had my "bloody show" - sorry if that's TMI! I'm hoping that means I am nearly 100% effaced and maybe even more dilated. Ideally, I would just go into labor tonight and not have to worry about any of the induction stuff. Only time will tell...

Here is a pic of me this afternoon, 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Holy belly!

Off to try and get some sleep. Lord knows I will need it if they take me in tomorrow!


  1. God bless you!! How are you handling the heat. You look amazing though. I couldn't imagine still being pregnant and walking around too.

    Just thought I would ease your worries and let you know that I have been induced with all 5 of my kiddos (soon to be 6). I wont lie when I say the pain is much more intense then if you go into natural labor. I have had my water break and went into natural labor on my own. But sadly, I was past the mark and ended up having to have the rest of my delivery be induced. My body knows how to do the delivery part. But despite even being more then 4 cm, and almost 100% it doesn't know how to actually go from 4-10 without help. Crazy. I know.

    Anyways, I just wanted to tell you I have been looking and seeing if your little guy has arrived yet. Take care and get plenty of rest if you can. Sometimes waiting is more tiring then the actual delivery.


  2. You look so stinkin' adorable!

    Sounds like all good signs. I know they bumped you this morning, but hopefully soon!

  3. i predict that Tater Tot is gonna come out all on his own :) sometimes an auntie just knows these things! :P

  4. You are just SOOOOOOOOO cute. I hope that the missed time slot is the gift you're looking for!

    (P.S. Did you see this?

  5. Nicole you still look AMAZING, pregnancy really does suit you!! I agree with everyone else, hopefully this is just Matteo's way of making sure he comes when he is good and ready! And although I can not give you any words of wisdom based on personal experience, I do know TONS of women who have had great labor and delivery experiences with pitocin inductions. I hope you have the birth experience you want and can't wait to see the little guy!!

  6. I found your blog again (but this time but it on my favorites list,ha).

    Hope everyhting goes well and you have a great birth.

    Praying for you.


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